a scar for every smile
i like people.

i thought this fact was going to ruin my life when i was younger

it turns out i didn’t like myself very much, and that absolutely did ruin my life several years.

i love learning about persons, listening to them talk, seeing their eyes light up. the way someone so attuned to the superficial can finally break down some of their guard and be honest with someone without fear of being snubbed or ignored

and the fresh perspectives it gives me are honestly what gets me through the rough spots of depression and other bullshit going on in my minefield of a mind

people just want to be appreciated.

recovery and change are concepts too big for such small notions as “hard” and “tough” and “difficult” and “always” and “never”

either somebody understands or they don’t. some divides cannot be overcome no matter how many honest words you try and use to cross them

but i feel better about life today, and that’s nice.

piercing-sirens-of-the-horizon:

And today…

when companies take a page out of the customer appreciation book things happen

Animorphs was always a war story. Wars don’t end happily. Not ever. Often relationships that were central during war, dissolve during peace. Some people who were brave and fearless in war are unable to handle peace, feel disconnected and confused. Other times people in war make the move to peace very easily.

Always people die in wars. And always people are left shattered by the loss of loved ones.

That’s what happens, so that’s what I wrote.

Jake and Cassie were in love during the war, and end up going their seperate ways afterward. Jake, who was so brave and capable during the war is adrift during the peace. Marco and Ax, on the other hand, move easily past the war and even manage to use their experience to good effect. Rachel dies, and Tobias will never get over it. That doesn’t by any means cover everything that happens in a war, but it’s a start.

Here’s what doesn’t happen in war: there are no wondrous, climactic battles that leave the good guys standing tall and the bad guys lying in the dirt. Life isn’t a World Wrestling Federation Smackdown. Even the people who win a war, who survive and come out the other side with the conviction that they have done something brave and necessary, don’t do a lot of celebrating. There’s very little chanting of ‘we’re number one’ among people who’ve personally experienced war.

I’m just a writer, and my main goal was always to entertain. But I’ve never let Animorphs turn into just another painless video game version of war, and I wasn’t going to do it at the end. I’ve spent 60 books telling a strange, fanciful war story, sometimes very seriously, sometimes more tongue-in-cheek. I’ve written a lot of action and a lot of humor and a lot of sheer nonsense. But I have also, again and again, challenged readers to think about what they were reading. To think about the right and wrong, not just the who-beat-who. And to tell you the truth I’m a little shocked that so many readers seemed to believe I’d wrap it all up with a lot of high-fiving and backslapping. Wars very often end, sad to say, just as ours did: with a nearly seamless transition to another war.
[K.A. Applegate, from a letter after the ending of the “Animorphs” series] (via starnosemole)
evocativesynthesis:

Abandon
scheduling posts for october because god fucking damn it i love autumn and because i can
hammpix:

For those of you who don’t understand archaeology, I have made a diagram.

hammpix:

For those of you who don’t understand archaeology, I have made a diagram.

recycledlogic:

Cold War era Microwave Tower overlooking LA County

open mics, man

music is where i wanna be

thecrimsonarcher:

Elkmont, Tennessee—
The piano inside of the old house, which has sadly fallen into ruin after many years of neglect. There is actually a picture on either Flikr or Google Images that someone had taken of this piano in 2006. It was in perfect condition.What was so heartbreaking is that when we tried to press the keys of this piano, the only sound that was uttered was a rusty clank that was completely out of tune. It didn’t even sound natural at all, but a little sad. My friend Schon and my Mom played on the piano for a bit, “composing” a little tune whose echo seemed both sad and distant, even a little hollow and lifeless.

thecrimsonarcher:

Elkmont, Tennessee—

The piano inside of the old house, which has sadly fallen into ruin after many years of neglect. There is actually a picture on either Flikr or Google Images that someone had taken of this piano in 2006. It was in perfect condition.

What was so heartbreaking is that when we tried to press the keys of this piano, the only sound that was uttered was a rusty clank that was completely out of tune. It didn’t even sound natural at all, but a little sad. My friend Schon and my Mom played on the piano for a bit, “composing” a little tune whose echo seemed both sad and distant, even a little hollow and lifeless.

southern-wishin:

Old river country

southern-wishin:

Old river country

ominousplaces:

Life is gone, by stengchen.

ominousplaces:

Life is gone, by stengchen.

kimharrington:

Abandoned Star Wars sets in Morocco. Via YahooNews

kimharrington:

Abandoned Star Wars sets in Morocco. Via YahooNews

exterminate-the-handbag:

Abandoned shopping mall in Northwest Ohio.

carachristopherjournal:

Outside of Essex County Hospital, aka SoHo -
Abandoned Mental Institution in NJ.